While I was away...

I discovered that my husband has had a girlfriend since I went into labour up untill I found out about it in Dec. when I was on the verge of taking him back so that my son has his father in his life and I believed that he could change and he was saying that he wanted to convert for me. I had a brake-down after finding this out. They sent him back home from Afganistan for trying to kill himself after all of his lies came to light and no one wanted anything to do with him. I've moved on to base. I've cut my hair to go natural (ie. stop putting chemicals in my hair to straighten it). I've stopped observing hijab although I refuse to wear a LOT of the clothes that I wore before I wore hijab as I find them waaaaay to immodest for my tased(funny huh?) LOL. I don't wear any tight shirts, no shirts showing any kind of cleaveage, no sleeveless shirts ( I still prefer long sleeves), and I still cover up my legs. Ummm let's see. I've fallen in love with a guy who is love with someone else. I've decied not to get married again....EVER. I let my friend whose husband beat her move in with me along with her kid. My car broke down. My bike broke , my kid and I are sick. I've done soul serching, I'm reconnecting with old friends, and InshaAllah I will be able to explain everything in full later. But, everytime I say that it doesn't happen. LOL. Peace Chan.

Oh and I lost a follower.Tears.

Religon

I hate labels. I had an arguement with this friend about this very thing. I was talking with my friend about this guy who is Muslim going to church. I said just because you're muslim doesn't bar you from going to chruch. I told her that I would marry a muslim guy that went to chruch. She was like "Why?" You can't be Muslim and go to chruch. To me this statement is completely stupid. Why can't you go to chruch and still be Muslim. Whenever I go home to visit my parents I attend a Christain church just to listen to the messege being presented. It's not like I pray to Jesus or something. Anyways, the conversation turned to a Christain friend that I have who doesn't believe that Jesus is God. And she said oh then she's not Christain. And I'm like who are you to define what someone is? I personaly know a lot of Christains who do not believe that Jesus is God. And further more a lot of Muslims would say that I'm not Muslim because I don't practice Sunna or believe in Hadith. When I pray and say my declaration of faith, I do not say "I bear witness that Muhammad is the Messenger of Allah" as I believe that this is incorrect and invalidates my prayer. To a lot of Muslims this is incorrect, and they would say that I am not Muslim. My friend believes the same thing. I pointed this out to her. The vast majority of Muslims would say that we are not muslim because we don't do these things. The same with Christainity the vase majority of Christains believe that Jesus is God; however, there are some Christains that think this belief is wrong and don't follow that way of thinking and define themselfs as Christain simply to say that they are followers of Jesus and his messege. But in any rate who are we to define what someone is or is not? Why do people always have to fit in to a little box, or be in a category? That kind of closed minded thing sets me on edge, and I will blow up on anyone who has the nerve to tell anyone the way they define themselves is wrong. Anyways, that's my piece. Peace Chan.